The Worm Has Turned

Not having a good day. It's not even anything big, just a sudden overwhelming feeling of hopelessness. There isn't even any real cause for it. Well, there is...but there isn't. There was no major upsetting event. It's just snowing.

We're supposed to get nine inches tonight. The three days of warmer temps we had didn't make much of a dent in the snow piles or the ice on the sidewalks. Now there'll be more again. I bought salt today. Actually it's called fast melt and damn it was expensive. Fifteen dollars for two five pound bags, $15!!!! My gods! It made me sick to my stomach to pay that, it frightened me, so much money for something that's going to get tossed on the ground and disappear. But I've got to be able to get out of the driveway.

And then I started to eat too much today, that made me miserable too. I ate dinner and still felt empty and at some more and realized that I forgot to take my medication today AND I'm just trying to fill up fear, which makes me feel empty.

So now I just want to go to bed. Sleep it off and start another day. I don't have to work tomorrow, not really. Just a meeting at six PM. Bux stores all across the nation will be closed. Retraining, recertification of all the baristas to the new standards and people will not be pleased I think. The new standards are going to slow everything down. Now I followed even stricter standards myself at Beans & Books, but I didn't have the rush business my Bux store does and ours isn't anywhere near the busiest.

No more auto steaming. No more resteaming. No more pulling of single shots, double shots ONLY. If you have two tall drinks you have to pull two sets of double shots. We have to hand the cups out a certain way, logo facing out and no more sleeves for bar drinks unless the customer asks for them. That will go over like a lead balloon. The other day I handed out an extra, extra dry cappucino with no sleeve...it's all foam!...the cup is barely even WARM...and the guy got tetchy with me. He sat INSIDE and drank that cappu from his to go cup with the sleeve and then tossed the cup and left.

What. The fuck.

And this? Is why this job is LESS than ideal for me. Idiot customers like that abound at the Bux and it's difficult for me to suffer the fools gladly.

So...yeah. I'm happy I have a job. I'm happy I have a decent job. I'm happy I have a wonderful crew to work with. It's only for four years and four months more. I can do this. I can.

Right now...I just want to go to bed.

The Dragon Baby wants to watch The Trek with me. We make MST3K with the old episodes...it's fun.

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